John C. Pontrello
"...And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God."
-1 Corinthians 6:11
From Godless, lawless, careless, drunk constantly, high on hard drugs constantly, promiscuous, angry, depressed, suicidal, bisexual. To thinking I was God, practicing kundalini yoga, manipulating the metaphysical to cater to my desires, “awakening my inner serpent”, “opening my 3rd eye”, “ascending my energy through spiritual alchemy”, practicing law of attraction, looking to my chakras and “resonating with higher frequencies” for healing, praying to the universe, losing every once of compassion for everyone I loved because I couldn’t separate their demons from their person, their hardships were purely their fault and everyone was pathetic and spineless. Religions were control mechanisms and Christians were naive, they just hadn’t studied Rudolf Steiner, Rosicrucianism, numerology, Manly Hall, Eastern mysticism, Terrence McKenna. The Bible was astrotheology, reincarnation was real. Heaven and hell were purely experiences of living reality, nothing more.
Humility was my turning point. The prayer to Jesus Christ were some of the hardest words to get out of my mouth. And I recognized that wasn’t a result of my own hesitation, it was peculiar and from outside of me. I knew something desperately wanted to prevent me from seeking and praying to Jesus Christ. The words were physically struggling to get out like they were being held back by an actual force.
In very sincere prayer and childlike vulnerability, I asked Jesus to reveal himself to me.
The very next day I heard words I had *never* heard before, someone asked me, have you ever heard of “Eastern Orthodoxy”? Baptized 8 months later. Glory to God, I am home.
1/6/22 ~ When I saw this on my friend's Facebook page I was moved and had to post it here. Thanks to Paul Trinca for posting and for adding a perfect Scripture.